Ceiling

For Avigdor
September 1981

On coming to the first sight is of white. Some time after coming to the first sight is of dull white. For some time after coming to the eyes continue to. When in the end they open they are met by this dull white. Consciousness eyes to of having come to. When in the end they open they are met by this dull white. Dim consciousness eyes unbidden to of having come partly to. When in the end unbidden they open they are met by this dull white. Further one cannot.

On.

No knowledge of where gone from. Nor of how. Nor of whom. None of whence come to. Partly to. Nor of how. Nor of whom. None of anything. Save dimly of having come to. Partly to. With dread of being again. Partly again. Somewhere again. Somehow again. Someone again. Dim dread born first of consciousness alone. Confirmed when in the end the eyes unbidden open. To this dull white. By this dull white. Further one cannot.

On.

Dim consciousness first alone. Of mind alone. Alone come to. Partly to. Then worse come of body too. At the sight of this dull white of body too. Too come to. Partly to. When in the end the eyes unbidden open. To this dull white. Further one-

On.

Something of one come to. Somewhere to. Somehow to. First mind alone. Something of mind alone. Then worse come body too. Something of body too. When in the end the eyes unbidden open. To this dull white. Further-

On.

Dull with breath. Endless breath. Endless ending breath. Dread darling sight.

-Samuel Beckett



































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